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Today also never go training,blaaa. Finally got to see Tingfang Dearest after many months. :) Met up with her at control station, ate mr Bean ice-cream (:P), bought bubble tea, then went to woodlan jalan jalan. Lian Kai said he saw me ley! He was even right beside me but I don't know it .___. 

While walking from mrt station to her kindergarten area, we crossed road illegally, not really jaywalk, but its like another kind of illegal crossing. :X I didn't realise till I crossed finish the road already, *fire gun-shot at me*. And Dearest rushed to reincarnate, she never see that the flashing green light had turn red already and she crossed, at the moment a car was turning in, lucky I pull her out or she float to heaven liao. :D Walked for some distance then reach YMCA, her kindergarten. LMAO, I just knew that YMCA has something to do with kindergarten ah? But the kindergarten looks more like childcare. -_- Seriously, the area was very old, the buildings and everything, at night sure very eery. :/ Played there, took peechas at the old playground. Got this thing very fun to play one neh! You sit on it, and it spins round and round. If only got more people push the thing, then it will spin harder, more shiok. :P

After some time, went to cwp. Ate at Ajisen for dinner, thanks Dearest for belanja me money to eat there. ^^ The silver fish hor, uber disgusting tau, eat one or two then me and Tingfang don't eat already. :X Eat finish walk walk a bit, suddenly got people do that sound*, for very long never stop, so I look around, and saw Brian upstairs, calling me nah. Susah sial. :X 

Headed back to cck, Lot. Tingfang say very long never take neopr so we go take nor. :) Still remember the stuck-up auntie who yaya around yesterday. _|_ Then went to rooftop talk 3 talk 4, cam-whore. Balek aftermath, reached home around eight/eight plus. I'll miss Dearest, hope she come back faster and also enjoy her stay at Shanghai. ^^

(Unglam nah above :D)

(find the exclamation mark made by a few drops of rain! :D)

Skipped training today. :X Went to school at 0230pm for meet parents session with father. It didn't go well, I dreaded it. I think 80% of what Mr Puffer said were all negative? Father and Puffer still at there agree here agree there, like blood brothers like that you mei you. And all Mr Puffer "advice" to my father is like, go against me one sial. Geeeeeeeshhhh. D:

After the session, father all bushuang, hot tempered liao. Bad stuffs happened. Wanted to stay out till night, but mother ban me from going out till night, fuck, I want see my silly! :( Argue already also no use. Bo bian nor, I met Amirah Boyfy and Tirui Chiojie at around 4pm at control station, then we go walk walk. Went up rooftop there slack and cam-whored. Unglam la. :X After that took neos at arcade. :D When Tirui putting in the coins at the neopr machine, suddenly got a worker of the arcade, or perhaps a cleaner, lifted up the "curtains", and stood there for very long, causing us to lose our privacy. She at there (@*&*@%!&^%$&^(@&*-ing to us. At first, she scold Tirui shouldn't keep slamming the insert coin thing even though jam, after that she scold me use phone camera to take peecha at the neopr machine, and then she keep commenting on our actions. Fuck, I was so unhappy with her that I talked bad, damn rudely. I was so irritated with her hao bu hao, we did no wrong, care so much for what la bitch! Roar.  I'm so proud of myself. :D

After taking neopr, saw Jannah, my old time bestie! ^^ Then, received a call from Bernard Spongebob, he was also at Lot! I chiong to the rooftop area to find him; my cutecute Spongebob. :) Exchange a few words and went off alr. Then I passed by Sherlyn Mommy! Talk talk to her a bit, she go there because of the Jolin Tsai stuff, she's coming/came to Lot I guess. Sumpa(?) uber happy to see Mommy. :) 

Went back aftermath. Meeting one or two of my ladies tomorrow, a farewell meet-up before Tingfang Dearest goes overseas for one month. :)

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Father's just given me a one-on-one "counselling" session. He's given me back my phone, and most importantly, my freedom. :) The session lasted for 50minutes, 0830pm till 0920pm, non-stop ley! My emotion went on a roller-coaster ride; was touched at certain moments, was sad at certain moments, was guilty at certain moments, and laughed at certain moments. :D I came to realise a lot of things my father sacrificed for me, and yet that I've not done enough for my parents. I've decided to be a really good and filial daughter from now onwards, ain't dear proud of me? :P

I don't like the feeling,the feeling of you degrading yourself,demoting yourself.

I can't help but feel this way,I don't like this unpleasant feeling either.

I wonder if this decision you've made is worth anything at all...

Just return from outside, went to Wsss Sec One camp @ Jalan Bahtera(?) to find Nerissa. :) Saw Oldman in a messy-hair state, LOL. Crystal was surprised to see us there. :D The campfire was hot stuff -there were shuffling, jumpstyle, breakdancing etc. performances, its been ages since I last saw people shuffle! :D After staying for quite some time, went to don't know where eat dinner la, reached home eleven or so. 

(On the way to campsite, the sun was effin red, but not obvious in this peecha.)

(Imagine going down this eery and uber rocky road at night, the road is fucking long I tell you :O)

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School, lessons slack as usual, but today more zest of fun and laughter was added to school life. :) Vernice said I'm high today as I laughed a lot, and seemed more "crazy". Can that mean 9/10 marks for my performance today? :P 

Recess, flare up because of that cheebong yi ge, I won't tolerate this kind of people. Then Tirui and I tried helping Liyana solve her relationship problem. :) 

MT Read, Mr Tan saw me unfold a piece of rotten,crumpled,scrunched-up-before newspaper. He see liao, stood there and stare for don't know how long. I guess he was taken aback to see someone going for read period, yet bringing only a piece of newspaper, and its even in rotten vegetable state like that. :D Wanted to pon, but ughhh, that Willie will always want to tell on us. Top wanted list: Willie Tan Wei Li, the guy who (L) bullying people and kicking people locker. :D Slept a lil during that boring period. Came to find out my Adik who sitting behind me also sleep sleep a lil ley, *Hi5!*. :3 

P.E lesson was uber cartoonic. As usual, chiong to the mini staff toilet with girlfriends to change. Don't know which careless person last one but never lock door. We change for one minute puls liao suddenly Wee Nee open the door slightly and said, "Hello?" We were like uber stun! Lucky we all weren't taking off clothes, but -insert name here- the malu one, zao geng oh. :D Imagine what happen if other people saw us changing, effin bodoh you mei you. :D After that we cannot stop laughing even when we reach the ISH, cher see already also "O.O".  

After school, had to stay back for ITSK, ji dan gao. Pon lor pon lor, end up still have to stay behind. -_- Vernice and I cannot stand sitting on the chair doing that IT stuff for long, thus we chiong finish the stuff, and even though I do wrongly, we ji tao zao le. :D 

Bused to Lot eat, slacked @ the "rooftop" there. That's where I saw Bernard; Spongebob. No fringe still handsome la. :) Went off around five, passed by Felicia Wifey. ^^

When you do so much, yet they see so little.

When you care so much, yet they feel so little.

Amirah didn't come to school today, tomorrow she ain't as well. We all understand why, hopefully can see her again soon. 

Today was also rather slack, I'm happy I managed to entertain my girls abit just as they entertained me. 

Its like a contagious virus. 

Went to school, clocked in, finally saw and talked to my Mommy again after so many days, perhaps even weeks. D: 

Today assemble at hall, got all those boring talk. Some faggot say we use lockers illegally and even spread to other people from outside our school. Even though Mr Tan english no good, but that faggot english sucks more than Mr Tan youmeiyou, ee what legal wor. Mr Tan hear liao at least he bushuang not with Bpians, but with that faggot. Mr Tan finally said nice things that were pleasing to our ears ley. :D 

Okie, school overall very slack, but slack too much it gets boring, so the only thing can do is eat,sleep,text. I had to borrow phone from Tirui and Amirah to text dear because I only have sim card. :( I also didn't bring any books,file, or worksheet at all, how lucky I am that none of the items were needed. ^^ 

After school, did not go for training, headed to Lot with 4 girlfriends and met up my sissy. We went to Jurong Point and did birthday cake for mama at the icing shop. (?) There was this group of teenagers who came to do cake also. Then got one guy very fat la, embrace girlfriend do cake with her must keep pushing me by the side one meh! @(^@#^&*#%&*^ haobuhao,I stood there hoping he won't manage to "push me too far",who knows he is so heavy one nah. He lucky I don't suffocate due to his hanging very loosely de space consuming fats or else his money fly liao hor. >:O 

Head home aftermath. When the train arrived, it suddenly got this honking sound which Idk what for until this day :X. I was standing right before the yellow line with another guy, and this guy actually did not only jerk,but jumped and went back a few steps when he heard the sudden sound. *Laughs* reaction so big. I cannot control myself and simply laughed, I'm so evil. :D

Aiya, my post all halfway here halfway there one, losing my blogging bug liao.

Give me time and I will.

Today was Bpian Idol and post-exam concert, it was effin boring. -_-

(I apologise for my ignorance to their efforts, tsktsk.)

The only interesting part was laughing at our silly jokes.

We includes Amirah, Vernice and Tirui, the other girls were at the far end of us. :/

But there were a number of girls who sang great. :)

Scarely some guys heart melt then dump their girlfriends for them, *laughs*.

Sat till ass pain, couldn't tahan anymore so went off with Adik.

We slacked inside the staff toilet for a while, cam-whored only one peecha. :D

Upon returning to the hall, there was a mass movement of "heading for toilet" peeps, LaughOutLoud. 

We were supposed to stay behind in school for some Itsk stuff, asked around but nobody knows what for, they only know its compulsory, tsk.

The four of us girls decided to pon Itsk and headed to Lot.

Idk if something will happen to us tomorrow, heck care. :P

Ate Mr Bean ice-cream for the first time, quite yummy. ^^

Charmaine is so happy that she's eating soya food stuff for the first time in many, years. :D

Aku spent most of the money mummy gave to me today.

I bought one Kim Bum mini card, one Bangbangtang card, hot pink phone strap and some uber chio phone stickers. 

Add together is like three days of my allowance liao ley. :) / :( 

Later tomorrow no more money buy cake for mummy birthday I die. *Smacks myself hard* 

I think I have some sort of disorder whereby "you get the money, you spend it."

From hundred plus bucks can become zeroooooooooo left ley! D:

Went home early as I felt bored, I sumpa(?) it was superb boring.

Holidays faster arrive as I want to meet my babes :(

Ed. Note: My peecha makes me look like a piggy :D 

Tio suan tio suan tio suan! 

Watched Night At The Museum last midnight, it was really entertaining, rate it 5/5. :)

But, I don't know why I felt nothing after it ended.

I didn't have that kind of "I just watched a wacky movie at the cinema" feeling.

Okie, I'm not right in my mind. :D

I have 2 random things I'll be posting about.

1) I suddenly want so many hot pink stuffs, but I don't have money to buy.

I want that neon hot pink watch I saw at Jurong Point,

I want a pair of hot pink Nf shorts,

I want a hot pink phone strapedit:bought!, hot pink phone case,

I want a hot pink this, hot pink that...

Roar, moneymoney come to me :O

2) 23 has always been my favourite number, and ever since yesterday,

It has became my hot favourite number, wahehehe. :P

This one actually is not random. :)

Fustration,

This will be a very random post.

1) Guess who's that, but actually I think its too small for you to guess liao. :D

2) Kim Bum!! ^v^ He uber gorgeous and hottttt, agree? :P

3) Find me. Okie, I know it's easy, just find. :3

4) Boliao sign :D

I said this post very random liao. :B

Update: 

I want my Kaixinguo to cheer up.

I hope both our troubles will end soon too. 

I miss you very the much, meet up as soon as we can, alright?

With my heart and soul, I love you. 

Fairytales Forgotten,

I'm feeling nauseous on the elevator.At times it goes up,up,up,at times it simply goes down,down,down,even when I press the open button,its doors won't;like getting hooked on drugs,I need a rehab, just as I have to get out of this spoilt elevator.

Was unhappy again today, and I showed someone attitude.
Of all people, I showed attitude to that friend.
I'm really sorry, I didn't mean to do it.
I cannot afford to lose this friendship, its really very precious. :(
I'll apologise tomorrow, sincerely, I really will.

Homed early today because as I've said I wasn't happy.

I think if I were to go through a performance test, I'd give myself only 4/10 marks. :(

Perhaps, I'd add a bonus point because at least, I tried laughing.

I wonder when the matter about smoking will end.

I wonder what -insert name here- is actually thinking of in his mind.

I wonder if...

Trust ain't in my dictionary anymore.

Tio gan by my mother.

Just had an almost heated argument with my parents.

It started out from my deproving results, to not being a good daughter, bla3.

And ironic enough, we arrived to this topic - Smoking.

I kept mum at first, I didn't want to create a din, end up shouting like some crazy bitch, seriously not in the mood for that.

Suddenly, she came to the topic smoking.

I was told that someone told her that I smoke, and she kept it to herself, tahan until today then talk to me about it.

I said, "I never smoke."

Then she went on to say, "but someone told me you got smoke."

I said again, "I NEVER SMOKE."

Then she went on to say, "if like that, tell me why that someone will tell us you got smoke?"

I, fuck up alr, said again, "I ALR SAY I NEVER SMOKE! WALAO EY, WHO TELL YOU ONE?! "

And she replied, "you go and think yourself la, who's those people close to you one and you told them, go think."

Once I heard the "you told them", I shouted, "I ALR SAY I NEVER SMOKE LIAO, NEVER SMOKE, NEVER SMOKE!!"

Mother answers, "fine, father you go check with that person why say she(me) smoke, we must find out everything that happened"

I seriously bueysong alr, shouted "is who tell you one!"

And wtf, they don't want to tell me and kept asking me to just reflect, recall and whatever bullshit.

And mama's last sentence to me was, "if really what you said is true, that person don't deserve to be your friend."

I'm posting this to tell that person,

I will find out who is the one who backstab me like this.

I didn't smoke, and I aint lying through my teeth.

Yes, I did mention before I wanna take up smoking, cause at that period of time, I was seriously stressed, felt left out, lonely, feeling like some of my close friends are double-sided, whatever whatever, that's why I said I wanted to try smoking.

Fer Jesus' sake, I'm just a normal human, sex:female, age:thirteen, ten fingers, two hands, one head, one body, two legs, two eyes, one nose........ 

- not alien, not ET, not CJ7,

Bonus point is I have moodswings, and those fugging period like every teenage girl. -_-

Andand, have I ever mentioned or anyone around me mention that I've taken up smoking? 

If you saw my posts,plurk,whatever mentioning smoking, and condemned me by saying I have taken up smoking, and even so dua pai go tell my parents,

One word for you = MORON .

Though, I still remember I had told several people about wanting to take up smoking before or asking for advice,

And I remember CLEARLY to whom I told my words to.

If you're that particular "friend" who let my words go ear in, and mouth out, (your mouth I mean),

You don't deserve to be my friend. _|_

Whoever it is, I will definitely find it out, and I will not let the matter rest so easily,

Because what's not truth had been told to my parents, and you're creating big time problems for me, terimah kasih. 

Don't say that you're doing these for my own good, when I did no bad in the first place.

Anyway, my parents will be finding you very soon, by that time we'll have to settle everything.

I know I will lose out abit cause yes, I did mention before I wanna smoke,

But you, creating this mess, I see who go even more down. 

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If that person actually turns out to be my senior relative, I don't know. 

Ed Note: Charmaine shall private her blog very soon.

The boat is overflowing with water.

Stranded in the middle of this vast,empty ocean.

This boat has only one fate;sink, and be gone with the time.

Grats to 102, netball girls championship. :)

Things just weren't so right today. Had inter-class netball, first match, went all out. Second and last match, didn't. Last match I began to get really unhappy when some stuffs happened. Plus that bitch and another class effin brought my mood further down. Step yi ge, bhb liang ge, pubor san ge. Tiu lei lo mo ar si fat lo! :B See them already BU SHUANG. Edit: Sorry Adik for hitting your injury thrice, (but inintentional). D: 

Stayed awhile in school with WeeNee they all, after that left with her. Headed to Lot, Weiqi tease me again :( Met up with Boyfy, Adik, Cutiepie, Stella and Xinee. Xinee left after awhile. We girls crapped. Don't know why can talk until ahem, forest* -armpit hair. XD Total gila crapping.  I was actually unhappy, but their entertainment value was so high that I ended up laughing with them too. :) Random: Kim Bum is hot. :P Went home aftermath, then again, the troubles began to flood back in my head, fuck.

That's all for my update.

Red threads.

Three/___ people, one decision.

The entanglement has become hard to break free from.

The knot has become too tight to untie and let loose.

Someone has to go,

Will I end up cutting off the wrong thread.?

Total slack off in class today, all about giving out papers. 

I almost flunked my physics, lit and chinese. :/

Ms Lee's lesson had always been a boring one (sorry oh!), so I slept a lil. 

Rather bored thus I decided to play with my fringe. @.@

Lian Kai caught me cutting it. Malu~ :X

Time flew, was told we had to shift to Ava to go through Mt papers.

Weee, sumpa(?) very happy can sit with Janice, Wee Nee and Chao Hong. ^_^

Wee Nee kept bugging me to tell her something.

I bobian, gave in to her request in the end. :P

She was excited upon knowing what happened and simply repeated the same sentence over and again, uber cute luh dey. :D

Lunched at Lot with sisters after school.

Went back to school for training after that.

Met our new coach -he's effin cartoon!

I laughed at his cuteness during his speech haobuhao. :D

He's rather nice, of cause he'd turn all fierce on the courts, who wouldn't, loll.

Went to the school "gym" during training.

Was supposed to do a workout but Weiqi made me laugh and I effin dropped the thing.

Weiqi ah Weiqi, she keeps teasing me about -insert word here- luhhhhhh. D:

Bla3.

Okie, I thought training would be boring, but it wasn't. :)

I foresee a boring day tomorrow.

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Overdued:

(some sissies aren't in there :{ )

Hush,
That much it hurts to know a truth that may just be a lie.

Muacks :P (A bit off-shot, next time do nicer!)

Mr Hudspeth, he's really cute when he teaches :)

Boyfy phone so chio, roar D:

Pink Dolphin <3

Kinderjoy <3

This would be me :D

And this would be Boyfy :D

Adik, Ass Axe, Boyfy :)

Its the forest.

I've been walking round and round in it for so long, can't get out.

I've fallen into a pit - deep, dark, endless.

Yelling for help desperately, my voice is turning coarse.

Not a single soul that I can see, not a single voice that I can hear.

Its so cold, so lonely in here.

Water drips on the ground, 

I place my fingertips slowly against my cheeks; 

No not the rain, they're my tears. 

I'm too numb to feel myself anymore.

I dropped forth on my knees and leaned against the wall of soil.

With my fingernails I write on the base of the hardened soil,

My last words, "Fuck everything."

She'll  be gone till its probably over.

Will you miss her?

I thought it'd be real, I thought it'd come true.

But, it all was meant not to be.

Trying hard to get the days by.

Yesterday night was effin gila, cousins, sister and I were running all the way from the mrt station to -insert word here- just to -insert word here-, LMAO. And my sister * made me litter cause she pass me tissue then I never catch properly and it drop on the floor and I never pick up we just continue to run then got so many public people who saw it at that point of time but we dont fhucking care lar and oh sory peeps for the noise we created you may dial 999 and file a police report okie. :D 

Reached home around 10pm. Watched 2 videos with cousins called "Rec" and "4bia". OhEmGee, Rec is uber scary haobuhao. Its the original of Quarantine, rating: 0^ (Because it is too scary for me liao.) Its got all those effin gross scenes that makes me don't wanna eat anymore! :O Words simply can't describe how scary "Rec" was. I sumpa(?) you watch already don't wanna touch anymore slimy, gooey stuffs liao. :X The next video is "4bia". It had four different stories, and the third one very funny oh! The four brothers are uber cartoon. Its suppose to be a ghost story yet it became a comedy show y'know. :D Stayed up till around 04am before going in to room to sleep. The girls all lying on the uncomfortable couch but I got bed to sleep ley, hehe. :P

Okie, that's all. Details not elaborated. 

Going out soon already. Perhaps, I'll be Mia-ing... Perhaps.

Boxim.
Today end school 0900am, boring. Went to Lot with Boyfy and Adik, slack off at Kfc's. Met up with Liyana, Asyqin, Tirui and Vernice after that. We sat at outside somewhere near Cheers wanted to cam-whore when Janice and clique came and disturb us! D: Wakekeke, just joking. :P Well, had a group photo with the babes. No it ain't an illegal gathering or gangsta meeting my dear Benjamin. Laughs, he said that when he saw us crowding together :D Took bus 300 back to school with Liyana, Xinee and Asyqin. LOL, Tirui, they didn't pangseh me. :)  

After volleyball annual meet-up or whatever crap it was, Liyana, me and another volleyballer zao straight off. Dui bu qi cher, wo men gan shi jian ley, yao lang fei ni de qian liao oh! :P

Upon reaching home, changed clothes, onlined a while, and left for Lot to meet with Bernard Spongebob. ^^ Walao, 5 boys 1 girl. :X After eating went to cheers. YAY, Spongebob veh nice got buy Kinderjoy (L) for me ley, be jealous bitch! Heeeee. :P After that, headed to 214 slack. It started raining so seek shelter at voiddeck. Then. Wapiang, totally being suan constantly youmeiyou. @.@ Tsktsk. Then, more guys came. It was simply boys overload yoh :X Andand, there's this guy called Desmond I think? Hahah, about the friendster stuff, superb cartoon. Or maybe it was me blur queen, lao ren chi dai zheng siol. :/ Well, he is friendly ^^ Okie, so I was texting while those peeps went googoogaga at the voiddeck. Went home aftermath.

Today, I am somehow very tired.

I had hilarious encounter in the morning before exam started, shan't elaborate though. After phototaking, went to Lot with Boyfy, Tirui, Willie and Xinee. Then came Boyfy's friend, a guy who has big eyes like my babe does. Interesting y'know :D I know someone somehow swung my hair when at the basement level okie~ After slacking in Kfc for some time, bidded goodbye to my luvly friends and headed to cwp with Boyfy ^^ Aww, pa tor time again! Wahehehe. (L) Saw this girl whom looked vehvehveh familiar at cwp. She also turn back and look at me with that "you're familiar" look! But... I simply can't figure out who she is ley. :/ 

Okie, didn't slack for very long cause yeah, was tired already. Boyfy also cannot slack liao. Mrt-ed with Boyfy, she got off the very first stop. The Mrt was so quiet and almost empty. At that point of time, I felt very comfortable cause I was able to be free from my troubles. Perhaps because it was rather peaceful. 

Reached home and slept :P

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Peechas: 

(overdued)

(-okay, I got scolded by the auntie for taking this peecha of piglet :D

-if you can't notice piglet's busted nose, brush your eyes with some colgate please ^^

-and, my dear babe was the one who busted it :D)

My past few days were spent simple, but they were peaceful. :)

School ended 0930am today, so bored. Slacked with Amirah Boyfy though, so wasn't bored already ^_^ Boyfy and I parted with Vernice Adik and Jill Sissy after eating at Mac's. We like tourist ley, travel to teckwhye, see where Teckwhyesec and Choachukangsec are, the area is veh secluded luh (?). Plus got banglah sial, anyhow talk to us. We don't care your name Allang or Allah la. :D Then we walk here walk there, and bus-ed back to Lot. Had a heart2heart chat with Boyfy for the several hours we spent there, although we walked aimlessly :D Sorted out several thoughts, feelings, problems. Even though, I'm still confused about something. Why can't they be clear cut? I'm being spun round and round, so much my mind is no longer clear anymore. 

Going cwp with Boyfy after school tomorrow. Probably having a movie meet-up soon too! I (L) Boyfy to the MAX. :P

I was bored =x

Went to Lot with the girls after school. Met up with Bernard, Jiajun and Alvis after that. Wapiang, Neri bombed us sial D: So, I watched those three boys as they ate, crack jokes, and suan me constantly. :/ Those boys are crazehhhhhhh, y'know. Like Jiajun that ass, from yesterday until now still like mad dog. He will suddenly shout -macam gilerh okie :D (Oh yeah, sorry for ps-ing Jiajun and Bernard yesterday at Limbang. Didn't mean to do it! Who knows why those fish-tards got such screwed up temper -_-)

After eatingthey ate, went over to 214 and slacked. I sit there, watch them play bball, then left for Neri's home after a short while.

The big thing I managed to do while I was with those cute guys was, laugh. ^_^